Embracing the past's imprints allows us to rewrite our future with autonomy and freedom

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I grew up collecting colorful postal stamps from the local market, dreaming of the day I could make a huge poster out of it. Those simple joys of childhood were cherished moments spent with my dad. But as the years went by, my stamp collection was forgotten, tucked away in the corners of my memory. Unbeknownst to me, I had started collecting a different kind of stamp—emotional stamps. These were not tangible, colorful pieces of paper but rather feelings from my childhood: moments of hurt, anger, and guilt. Much like my postal stamps, these emotional stamps were stored away in my mind, each one representing a past experience that had left a mark on me.

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One day, I noticed these emotional stamps were affecting my life in unexpected ways. Whenever someone upset me, it felt like adding another stamp to my collection. Sometimes, I even found myself provoking others to recreate those old feelings, subconsciously saving up these emotions for a psychological prize. It was a perplexing realization that I was not merely reacting to the present but reliving the past.

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Many of us, particularly in Indian society, where familial bonds and cultural expectations play a significant role, unknowingly collect these emotional stamps. Our childhood experiences, especially the challenging ones, leave an imprint on our psyche. These emotional stamps accumulate over time and influence our behavior and interactions in adulthood. As we grow up, we may start noticing patterns in our reactions. For instance, when criticized, some might react with an overwhelming sense of inadequacy, a feeling rooted in the high expectations and criticism experienced in childhood. Others might react with anger or fear, reflecting past experiences of being belittled or threatened.

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Recognizing this pattern is the first step toward change. Awareness of our emotional stamps helps us understand why were act the way we do. This realization can be both liberating and challenging. It requires us to delve into our past, recall how we felt during tough times, and identify the triggers that caused those feelings.

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To begin this journey of self-discovery, consider these questions:

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• In childhood, when things were tough or emotions were high, how did you usually feel?
• What feelings do you experience most commonly as an adult when things go wrong? Fear? Inadequacy? Anger? Guilt? Helplessness? Anxiety?
• In what kind of situations do these old feelings emerge? Are they similar to childhood situations?
• Do you frequently indulge in long sulks, blowing off steam, crying jags, binge behaviors, overdrawn accounts, or explosive reactions?

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These teaser questions will help uncover the emotional stamps we have been collecting to begin with. Once we identify them, the next step is to change how we respond to these feelings. Instead of indulging in negative behaviors, we can practice healthier coping mechanisms like mindfulness, journaling, or seeking support from friends and family.

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For example, one of my clients, Meera, struggled with chronic anxiety and feelings of inadequacy. Through our sessions, Meera realized that these feelings were rooted in her childhood experiences of constant criticism and high expectations from her parents. She had been collecting emotional stamps of fear and inadequacy for years. By recognizing these patterns, Meera began practicing mindfulness and self-compassion, slowly breaking free from the cycle of her emotional stamp collection.

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This journey of self-discovery and change is essential for achieving autonomy. It is not just about recognizing old feelings but also about making conscious choices to change how we respond to them. This process allows us to live more authentically and freely, unburdened by the emotional baggage of our past. In Indian society, where emotions are often intertwined with cultural and familial expectations, this journey towards autonomy is particularly significant. By reflecting on our emotional stamps, we can understand how our past shapes our present, and more importantly, we can choose to respond differently. This awareness and change enable us to live amore liberated and fulfilling life.

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As you reflect on your own emotional stamps, remember that this journey requires patience, self-compassion, and a willingness to change. By breaking free from the patterns of the past, we can live a more liberated and fulfilling life. Cheers to discovering your autonomy and the hidden gems within you!

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